“We don’t have enough songs. We dropped five songs from “Bleach” (Mr. Moustache, Sifting, Paper Cuts, Downer and Swap Meet) off the set the week after we recorded it. We’re not playing them anymore because they’re boring. It’s just the same set. Fun. Fun. Fun. But in Europe we’re bigger than breakfast on an underground level.” - Kurt Cobain, 1990.
“In a last attempt to make it clear, this girl did not have down syndrome. She had regular classes for normal people. A lot of naive asshole kids just called her retarded because she never talked. I decided that I’ll not sit on my roof and think about jumping, but I’ll actually kill myself and I wasn’t going out of this world without actually knowing what it is like to get laid.
One day after school, I went to her house alone. I invited myself in and she offered me some Twinkies and I sat on her lap and said “let’s fuck” - I touched her tits and she went into her bedroom and got undressed in front of me with the door open and I watched and realized that it was actually happening. I asked her if she’s ever done this before and she said “a lot of times, mainly with my cousin.”
I got grossed out very heavily so I left. My conscience grew to where I couldn’t go to school for a week. I couldn’t handle the ridicule. So on a Saturday night, I got high and drunk and walked down to the train tracks and layed down and waited for the 11:00 train and I put two big pieces of cement on my chest and legs and the train came closer and closer. It went onto the next track beside me instead of over me. I went down to the station and they tape recorded my confession of what I did and said that her family can’t do anything because she was 18 and not mentally retarded.
The train scared me enough to try to rehabilitate myself and my guitar playing seemed to be improving so I became less manically depressed, but still never had any friends because I hated everyone for they seemed so phony.” - Kurt Cobain, 1989/1990.
Interviewer: “So, what’s your objective as a band?”
Kurt Cobain: “To write really good music, to write the best music we possibly can. That comes before anything else; it comes before philosophy, image or playing live. It’s always been the main point. Just songs.”
1/6/90 - University of Washington, Seattle, WA.
Kurt Cobain and Krist Novoselic were banned for life from all University of Washington venues for destroying so much gear at this show.
Newly released photos from a 1990 Nirvana photo-shoot with Steve Double. Go like his Facebook page here for more of his work!
